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On christmas morning

It's holiday yaw !
Lets hangging out and play around.

Pesan diri

Cik Ati,
Could you please behave ?
Jaga lidah kamu
Senyum slalu.
Bykkan memperkatakan hal yg berfaedah.
Jgn sebok hal org.

Dia tegor awak sbab dia tak mahu awak begitu.

Hijrah to more positive.

EH EH

H E S M I L E T O M E

H E H A D M A D E A C O N V E R S A S I O N W I T H M E

I F E E L H A P P Y

D O I L I K E H I M ?

J U S T F E E L H A P P Y W I T H T H A T I N C I D E N T

(^______________^) (V)

Hijrah itu perlu

Al kisahnye,

Ade seorg hamba Allah yg dulunya mempunyai sejarah hidup yg nakal.

Tapi berubah setelah satu insiden.

See,
Setiap orang boleh berubah.

Oleh itu.
Ati.
Tolong. Berubahlah. Jadilah seorang yg lebih baik.
Hopefully one day i can be better person.

Aku

Diri rase diperbodoh.
Diri rase diperlekeh.

This is me.
Only me.

Kamu tu org lain.
Kamu tak boleh atur.

Tetapi tegerun itu perlu.
Setiap teguran perlu ade hemahnye.
Perlu ade natijahnye.
Perlu kene pade tempatnye.

Perlu berkesan ape aku.
Kerna org yg dipersalah dan diperbodoh itu aku.

Home sick

Baru seminggu tak blek tu pon da nanges.
Ape la...
Wake up ati wake up.
Now you are 24 years old not 12 years old.

Asek ingat rumah je..
Kalo org lain taw buat malu je...

Rindu nk golek golek dgn ibu.
Rindu nk kaco adek.
Rindu nk pelok abg.
Rindu nk tgk ayah.

Tapi ak pon nk jumpe kwn kwn.
Lame tak jumpe diorg.

Ayah, ibu, abg, adek...
Akak rindu korang seme....

Written on 25 Oct 2013
11.13 pm.

Aku si penakut

Salam...

It's was scary...
Seriously...
I'm at bus terminal pontian now.
Waiting for bus to benut.

There was a guy.
I had never saw him.
I'm really scared.

At first he look at me.
Ok. I tough it was nothing.
It was normal for human to see around him right.
So I was ignore him.

Then our eyes meet again.
Ok. I just do nothing.
At last he stand in front me with cigerate between his lips (smoking).
He take a sit beside me.
He try to make conversation with me.
He asked some question.

Nk pegi mane ?
Tunggu sape ?
Kenapa tanak jawab ?
Jangan sombong.
Saya orang baek. Bukan orang jahat.
Saja nak teman borak borak.

And i didn't answer to all his question.
I just turn my head to left and right.
Just facing the floor. I was really scared.

Dlm hati berkata.
Bukan sombong. Tapi takot. Cara encik salah.
I never gave you any positive signal just go away from me.

At last he gave up and get away from me.
And i try to find bus.

While i typing he was glared at me now.
But i'm save for now coz i'm in bus.

Written on 4.13pm 19 Oct 2013

Di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada highway

Olla.

Last entry terasa diri tu da beso sgt...
Tapi i am a persom who need more lesson to be mature. Need to learn more.

So untuk masa, waktu dan tika ini. Ak teringin untuk mengambil sikap mengurangkan jumlah perkataan bertutur. Kire nk kurang bercakap la nie.

Ak memang da lama nk ubah perangai ak yg cube menjemah ni.
Pagi tadi my beloved friend had adviced me. So i hope i can fullfill her advice.

Ak teringin.
Ak mahu.
Oleh itu ak perlu berusaha.
Yeyeah !

11 oct 2013

Geram

Hohohoho...

My leave was approved.
Suke suke suke.

Tapi....
Arghhh !!!!
Geram taw tak.
Baru je nk berbaek baek sangka dengan die...
At last saket pulak hati kite...
Bonggekss betolla....

Choiii...
Memang kite takkan berbaek kot...
Hrmmmm....

Masih belajar tentang kehidupan

Selepas melalui apa yang terjadi,
Sekarang aku tahu dimana silapku.

Aku adalah seorang yang suka "mengkambing hitamkan" orang lain.
Even akulah pesalah aku akan tetap menyalahkan orang lain. In future ak mesti mengaku kesalahan diri.

Aku selalu mengeluarkan kata kata yang boleh mendatangkan rasa jengkel dlm hati org lain.
In future ak harus berdiam seketika dan berfikir sebelum bersuara.

Ak selalu tidak hirau perasaan org lain.
Diam itu perlu.

Disebabkan sikap tidak mengendahkan dan tidak menghiraukan org serta selalu mengkambing hitamkan mereka. Maka ak selalu beranggapan bahawa ak tidak bersalah. Ak betol.
Kesannya, ramai org yg tersinggung kepada ak. Tidak kurang yg terasa hati.

Harap ia menjadi pengajaran kepada ak.
Pengalaman dan pelajaran yg berharga.

Love your sahabat, Ms Asma. Terima kasih atas nasihatmu.

Learning process

This is my 3rd entry for today.

But it ok.
Tade sape pon bace.
Hohho.

Ok actually nk share something.

Citernye gini.
Ak buat kwn ak kecik ati.
Punce ?
Of course salah ak.
Ape salah ak ?
Ak tengking die.
Kenape tengking die ?
Salah ak sdiri.
Tone ak tu. Nada ak tu.

Nie memang best lesson tok ak.

Tq to her.

Memang after this agak janggal antara ak dan die. Tapi oleh kerana die ak sedar yg ak memang tak patot buat camtu. Even kat sesape pon.

Memang patot seme org maki ak. Sbab ak tak penah tau ape yg org lain rase.

Sgt sgt tak rugi air mate ak kluar sbab rase bersalah dekat die.

Ye memang salah ak.

Ati,
Please. You need to slow dowm your volume. Not you but me.
I need to respect others even who they are. Don't rough to them. Practice now. If i can only handle my self when i am not seeing them. So i need to communicate with them in directly.

IMPROVE. IMPROVE.

Had bewn written on 26 of Sep 2013.

First step

Dear Ati,

Arini amek test JPJ.
Skarang masih under control.

Rentetan citer smalam,
So arinir i hope i can control myself.
Hopefully i can be more polite.

Hopefully i can handle it.

Dear ALLAH,

YOU know the best for me.
I'm doa i can be better person.
Amiiiin.

Written on 25 of Sep 2013

Lesson for today

Dear Ati.

From what had done today.
You must learn something right ?

What is past just let it past.
Now you need to open new page.

In future, you need to think before you act.
Remember not all people can accept what you done.

Now you know they do not like it.
Next time just be in silent mood and shut up your mouth.
Could you please be quiet for a while ?

Please.

I'm sure you can do it.
Just stay cool my dear.

Ok. That it.
Be more gentle.
Don't ever give up to improve yourselve. Be the best. Beat your past and for sure you are always improving yourselve.

o n b e h a l f

Dear Ati.

Ati, hopefully that you can be a better person.

Please.

Please be a mutured person.
You are already 24 now. It not a small value.

Suppose on this time you can be a person who can support your family. But its ok.
Just do your best ya my dear.

Be the best by beatting your best.
Ensure you be yourselve.

Perasaan yg itu

Rasa itu.
Ia dtg lagi.
Rasa diri diperbodoh.
Rasa diri ini hanya ditegor dan disapa pabila mereka berdepan dgn masalah.

Rasa marah, meluat, benci, geram.
Semua rasa negative bersatu.

Kucuba membuang. Kucuba menghindar.
Tapi sayang.
Ia umpama kotoran degil.
Tidak mahu bergerak dan berganjak.

Andai masa boleh menjadi pengubat.
Datang lah cepat. Moga ia berlalu dgn pantas.

Rasa itu.
Harap kau hilang.

Hilang dan pergi.

Pergi ~

Bawa ak pergi.

Seriusly, sgt sgt memerlukan someone to take me away.

Take me away ~ to secret place ~